I Am Nothing

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    [01] i am nothing
    [02] invisible
    [03] bound by blood
    [04] breaking point
    [05] losing all hope is freedom
    [06] lost
    [07] they live
    [08] death panel
    [09] let go
    [10] among the living

    all music produced, arranged, engineered, and written by [name_withheld].
    all lyrics written and performed by [name_withheld].

    mixing and mastering by [name_withheld].

    all art created and manipulated by [name_withheld].

    dedicated to matt dean.

    i cannot undo what i have done and you will never know how truly sorry i am. just know that until my last breath i will remember you as i knew you, not how i created you.

    copyright 2015 [name_withheld], all rights reserved.
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released May 1, 2015

[01] i am nothing
[02] invisible
[03] bound by blood
[04] breaking point
[05] losing all hope is freedom
[06] lost
[07] they live
[08] death panel
[09] let go
[10] among the living

all music produced, arranged, engineered, and written by [name_withheld].
all lyrics written and performed by [name_withheld].

mixing and mastering by [name_withheld].

all art created and manipulated by [name_withheld].

dedicated to matt dean.

i cannot undo what i have done and you will never know how truly sorry i am. just know that until my last breath i will remember you as i knew you, not how i created you.

copyright 2015 [name_withheld], all rights reserved.
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Directed by insomnia, drug abuse, and severe emotional instability, [name_withheld] has an insidious drive to stab and bludgeon his way to the top of the music industry. Completely uncensored, [name_withheld] relates tales of violence, torture, abuse, and delivers scathing political and societal views, and refuses to let anyone tell him what is or isn't supposed to come out of his mouth. ... more

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Track Name: Invisible
figure.i
her eyes burn - straight through my...
walls built up - they're ripe with the decay of me
i watch her - from afar i just...
lure in prey - with the damage wrapped in tragedy
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eyes glossed over with the glimmers of the stars
i follow without aim and never give a second thought to scars
shed the skin i'm buried in and sew a new deceit
to be i must embrace the hidden gift that fate has handed me
been there all along and no, i never knew it well
the more i let it go the less i have to suffer in this hell
where i sifted through the empty shell of what i am
i open up the gates and let her see the battered empty man
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with this way i persuade you another step into the cycle
total grasp on all your thoughts and dreams, but i'm invisible

figure.ii
too far gone - never gonna be...
my true love - but you're never gonna let me leave
i'm locked in - never gonna get...
out of you - my freedom and soul you seize
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grand illusion pointing love at me, it's just a weapon
leaving jagged holes that itch and seep and bleed with the infection
this infatuation has me leaving lacerations
constant phase of irritation with me chasing your distraction
all i can is not enough - it's not enough to feed your lust
and when it's said and done our separation is a must
gave you love, i gave my life, and now i give you death
so when you look at what we had you know i loved till my last breath
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with this will i persuade you another step into the cycle
total grasp on all your thoughts and dreams, but i'm invisible
Track Name: Bound By Blood
where do we go from here?
i feel you in me, i feel you in fear
flowing through your veins like you do mine
do you not remember the vow that we made at that time?
bound by the blood in our veins
i let you in and now i'm the one that is drained
knowing what i know now, were we ever the same?
i feel alone inside your embrace of the red and black flames
bit off more than you could ever consume
i should've left you for dead, left you rotting in your tomb
you spawn this progeny, i'm bleak with the need
drain you, writhing with the pain of thoughts of our eternity
bite the hand that feeds the mouth of a god
where were you when this curse left me lost - at odds?
you were gone, a ghost, and now i'm left with your skin
a reminder of this love turned to hate within
---
"feed me your soul
you have no control
take this from me
you're dead and empty"
---
empty smiles hide the lies we find deep inside
parasites; we drain the color from the skies
i'm so in love with your tragedy - inside of me
cause you're forever stained upon my broken identity
---
build up this curse in me
i'm tainted with your touch on this ground so holy
prey for your feast but the beast in me unleashed
has you running, tail between your legs - a slave to my deceit
bury me now in this prison of you
i'm looking at the world through scattered points of view
you're in pain but i know the name we blame in vain
is just a weak mechanism burning doubt into your brain
why did we ruin our trust?
we let it take control, exceed what it was
but it's over with this hex, we lay it to rest
another night is over but we know the future is vexed
glow in the warmth of the sun
we stand hand-in-hand; i know you're the one
we kiss a final time and say "goodbye"
this love has left our veins to dry and now we burn until we let the other one die

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"fed you my soul
we had no control
took this from me
we're dead and empty"
Track Name: Breaking Point
verse i
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here's the story 'bout a man going nowhere fast
spent his whole life watching his chances pass
getting kicked around, walked on, then used
till he lost his grip from all the abuse
no use in giving a fuck cause he's lost the will to cope
and puts on a mask to face the world with a broken sense of hope
void of empathy and void of life, a social con-artist locked in limbo
the worn-out cog that finally broke from all the stress and let go
cause now he doesn't sleep, and now he doesn't eat
a ticking timebomb that's wired real weak
he's burning out fast while gritting his teeth
the point of no return is sitting at his feet
all he wants is to be free will doesn't come cheap he will see
fed a life of misery loves company but he's too weak
this man left with open wounds won't heal them up anytime soon
in the mirror he will see that there is great danger in me

chorus
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push me to the edge and watch the bodies hit the floor
now say it with me: no more, no more, no more, no more, no more
take your toll on me and watch the bodies hit the floor
now say it with me: no more, no more, no more, no more, no more
taunt me with your lies and watch the bodies hit the floor
now say it with me: no more, no more, no more, no more, no more
you'll reap what you have sewn when your body hits the floor
now say it with me: no more, no more, no more, no more, no more

verse ii
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hit the bottom where i dwell on this hell
a neverending loop of lies and dreams they sell
let it all go, let it all flow
the more i hide the less you know
it grows - the lack of remorse i cultivate will put you at ease
when i inflate your ego with hate and make you do as i please
open-eyed stare - i'm not there cause i'm aware
the more i bear in mind the more i don't care
a motive might rise
and present to me that means to an end that sees you die
cause the second you turn your back it's a metal on flesh attack
that leaves you crippled and choking on your blood not knowing where you're at
hate has made me weak willed vultures circle above over me
they know not the end has now been swallowed up by all the means
now let it be understood that i am a god of vengeance
war is what i seek and i won't stop till my light is silence
Track Name: Lost
bridge:
blue skies die every time i close my eyes
i've burned them all for you
silent wounds empty of all epiphany
never once accepted your truth
gap-toothed lies wrapped in darkened eyes
do unto others as they do unto you
maybe one day i'll recognize the guise
and sever all the binds that turn my colors blue

chorus:
"you act like a god but you're barely a beast"
i mean, at least you could cease to be
"not enough for me," you see
i crave the scars you have to inflict on me
cause every day it's passing me by
a semi-automatic attack and the bullets are lies
i draw the line in my mind
the more i unwind the more i'm out of time

verse1:
beat me till i'm nothing - i don't wanna be alive
inside this hell inside my mind cause it's swarming like a beehive
i'm never good enough, and now i'm never gonna be
until you see that everyday you build and bury parts of me
broken promises and yellow grass beyond the fence
i don't want your thoughts in me cause i've lost my innocence
and all the happiness you wither up - i've come to terms with this:
you knife me with your words and then you fill the wounds with piss
hazy vision spinning everything i hope to be
into a mess of fiction choking on it's own reality
i suffer for your touch, and now i suffer in your wake
the monster that i made is here to take the love i tried in vain to make
sewn up empty with my thoughts alone i wait inside
no surprise to me i'll wait until it's time for me to die
and i hope it's one day soon because i cannot live with all the shame
and all the blame i put on you is really in my name

verse2:
now i'm left with nothing - i'm the king of pain and sorrow
self-induced wounds fester while they wait for tomorrow
endless days i wait to hear the voice that picks up all the pieces
i'm defeated, and i cannot see me lasting till it ceases
promised me forever when you never had the faith in it
i trusted you and now i reap the withered seeds of my regret
it burns to bring up memories that haunt the corners of my heart
the ghost of who you used to be is calling from afar
hold back a half a million wordless screams it seems
i'm lost inside the world i tried to save from you in dreams
that hold the key to drive away this darkness brought on by my fear
i'm nowhere near to saving everything that i thought we held dear
demons flooding every nook and crack i failed to seal
bury my love then i pick and scratch the scabs that fail to heal
pick away at all the rusted nerves and let the layers die
let 'em die until this old machine is empty inside
Track Name: They Live
here we are in 3rd-world-america, slaves to the grind
of the gears that strip us of our numbed out minds and time
what the fuck do i care for your TV selling popularity?
lipstick smiles sucking on the dick of apple and pepsi - social epilepsy
generation nil - a degradation of the will
the never-ending loss of what we used to be is making me so ill
9 to 5 hivemind - chasing dimes on my time
and when i get the chance i tune your garbage out of my mind
murder on the rise and what the fuck do you care?
cause you're concerned with your perfect teeth and hair
the facade of free smiles hide the corporate beast you feed with the labor you bleed on your knees
for greater need of our self-induced misery for the rest of our chained-down history

they live - you sleep
not me - i see
their lies
they're deaf - you're blind
not me - i see
your lies

shhhh. hear that? black helicopters and drones on the low
yes, i bet they know about the secrets we sew
stab each other in the back and let our empty dreams go - oh no
the propaganda got your ego blown up like your fake tits - let go
the face you try to chase is sewn up with a bow made of shit
hiding big brother's eugenic tip and when it all comes down you'll slip
who thought to give the inmates the guns?
they lost their control and now they want to run
prozac in the water, lull the sheep to sleep
one eye open wide, these cowards creep
undermine the working class with the pills and glass that fuel the fire burning till their last gasp
"so it is written and so it shall come to pass, at last: empirical collapse"
Track Name: Death Panel
human beings - a filth, a disease
lurking in me is the key to their release
war, famine, pestilence - death as i please
turn off reality and set yourself free
pale red skies above bodies burning vast
never looked ahead and you'll never look back
perpetual-motion trapped inside the past
alone i suffer through this and alone i am the last
gun-point abortions at the hands of uncle sam
tube-feed the maggots fables of the living damned
eight-billion reasons everything is obsolete
we're a fungus growing - no control - the mother we deplete
turn off your ego - let it die and wilt away
everything you love and cherish leads your true intent away
quality control on display - open wide
invalidate the value of your life and make you die

we're having morbid fantasies of total domination
of the human race through innoculation - chemical castration
never underestimate our will to see it through
self-induced doomsday impending on you

greedy apes burning out the harvest of the land
in a genocidal nightmare that we never could have planned
2000-plus years of growth in our grasp
on the throat of a planet that's let our lease lapse
one hand plays tricks you're never meant to see
while the other robs your pocket then it hands it back to me
dilute the minds of drones and send them on their way
back to play with the selfish toys that man has now made
animals in cages - built to keep us all in
tear down the walls and let the populace thin
global genocide with no turning back it seems
in our dreams we are gods above the sky, land, and seas
in reality we are nothing more than beasts
as we feast on the pyramid - our wills, they never sleep
cemetery earth with the gates hanging wide
as we die, we could run but we could never ever hide
Track Name: Let Go
cold embrace seeping through the cracks
in my back - nice how i lose all control and now i need to relax
but it never comes and building up it hides
the voice that beckons sewing doubt and filling me up with these lies
cold and distant - locked away inside this lament
no escape from myself and all the silent torment
the sun is not so bright on this day - i'm afraid
and everything is dimmed and fading to lovely shades of grey
still in limbo - still in motion - can they see inside?
cause i'm not myself - i'm not a person - i don't wanna hide
wake up falling down inside a maze inside a nightmare
watching life not knowing how i got there and it's never fucking fair
disrepair - cut it up and leave it leaking in the air
push it back inside and wallow in despair - i don't care
it's holding me down, it's holding me back
and when i put this gun to my chin and pull it back and it goes:
"i'm free"